On the phone [Mac]

"first we are going to share the bathtub Taylor!" I laugh and get up "don't worry you can wear your pj's might not be very nice but you want to share things so let this be a start"

"What?!" I ask you in shock. You can't be serious...

"I think you've heard me!" I smile and start walking to the hallway

I watch you leave but I don't move.

I walk into the bathroom and let the water run into the bathtub wondering if Mac would dare to come

Even though I might be known as a brave man, but this time I really don't move. This is way too much for me.

I guess not.... well then I won't share my bathtub... I shake my head and drop the over sized t-shirt on the ground, remove my underwear and climb into the hot, filled with bubbles, bathtub. "I'll be fine on my own" I whisper to myself and relax in the bathtub

I'm still on the floor, but now move towards the couch fighting an inner battle. Should I? Should I not? The brave part of my brains says yes the realistic part says no. What am I gonna do now?
"Mac... what have you gotten yourself into again?" I whisper to myself.

This is great, just one thing missing.... "Mac! can you bring the glass of wine?" I grin to myself ok maybe one more thing is missing but I can probably keep dreaming till i'm 109 and still a CSI

I hear her calling me and get her glas, seemingly not really knowing what I am doing.
sharing the tub for a start? I had other things in mind for a start... I think but shrug and bring her her glad of while.
I stop at the door for a moment, uncertain if I am doing the right thing, but I think the wine took over, even though I haven't had that much. I open the door and get inside, closing the door behind and then walk up to you and hand you the glas, sitting down on the edge at the end of the tub and look at you.

I was surprised when I heard the door go open, I really never thought he would do that. I take the glass from him when he sits down on the edge of the bathtub "Thanks" I say and take a sip of the wine, oh yes I've had more wine than I normally drink

"You're welcome." I say feeling a slight bit uncomfortable, but don't want to move.

"are you ok?" I wonder while taking another sip of the wine. "you don't have to join me if you don't want to besides well I thought you wouldn't come so I'm not wearing anything, Sorry if I make you feel uncomfortable"

"Well, I got myself into this, right? Besides watching you is fine with me, unless you don't want me to. Say it and I'll wait in the living room." I say.

"Hey, I wanted you to come over right? and started about the bathtub, I got myself into this too so like I said before, you may join me if you want" I say and smile

"ok" I say a bit disappointed I reach out for the glass of wine. I actually shouldn't drink more but I just feel liking doing it.

"Why the disappointment?" I am quick to ask.

"Stella... well, maybe it's not like a start to share the tub..." I say and feel a little bad now.

"maybe you should go home then" I force a smile knowing i could break down any minute now. he better leaves...

I study her face for a moment and somehow know that she didn't really mean that.
"What are you expecting me to do? I know you didn't mean that, but it was you who blocked that path you now want me to follow you?" I say in a calm tone, even though I literally feel my heart break.

"Mac forget it, go home... I shouldn't have called you. I get it" I put the glass down and sigh, maybe its the best if he leaves.. I understand what he means...

I look at you and sigh. You don't get but well... another time.
"Fine." I say and get up from where I sat.

I don't look at you while you get up, too busy hiding my tears