Back home after Ivy introduction (Lindsay)

Was surprise but not sure if i should be happy right now because maybe she was still angry. I just look her, eyes in eyes, hoping she would talk. Because if i have to explain her ehat happenned eights before for not lost her I would.

"i told you" i said to her again slowly now because lucy was sleeping. And then i added because i didn't want a new fight. "I promised to her to don't say anything" then i stopped again becase she was looking me for continue "she was involved in a cold case"

I hesitated. Wouldn't be fair for ivy. I gave to her my word. And I didn't fail on during all these years. I look at Lindsay who were looking at me too with this look. "I gave her my words to don't say anything" i finally said

Should I told her? Should I tell her? Or do I wait till she learn it from Ivy? She one more time turn herself in the other side making me watch her back. I sighed, why everything is so complicated. "The cold case where she involved that night when she was kidnapped I was suppose to be with her but in the place I wasn't. This guy is a serial killer and she was on their first victim, we never catch him, he is like a ghost. After that night, she never wanted to speak with me about it, she just kept everything for her and that is what made us separed. Since when she moved in LA, and now she is back." I confessed her, she was the first to who I said it.

he finally told me what was going on. He finally told me something about his past, what happened with Ivy, and what the reason was he didn't spoke about her. It was out now, i was sure he would feel pounds lighter.. I stayed still for a few moments though, taking in what he said.. I wasn't sure whether he wanted to talk more about it, or not at all..

"i'm sorry" i whispered, staring into the dark.

She listenned to me and told me she was sorry, what I heard. I was happy that she finally say something because yes it wasn't a part of my life I really liked. And I didn't to talk about. I was still looking on her back and I added. "it's ok"

What should I said to this ? Of course I never told her but I never told anyone either. I understood that she can feel like this. And I care about her, I don't want to lost her for something like this.
"I just tried to forget it" I replied to her honestly
I past all these years waiting for Ivy talk to me without nothing at the end, this was judt killing us, both of us.

I understood that she can think wrong. That she can be scared.
But even if it's hard to understand i gave my word to Ivy eights years ago and i was prepared to respect it.
She finally asked me if Ivy knew about us.
"Yes, she figured out, and I confirm her thought"

I look at her. And saw that she feel now more better. "I am sorry if I lied to you" I admitted and continue to watch her in the dark.

I feel really better she turned and put her hand on my cheek. And I look at her. "I am sorry if I did but this how I am." I said again but this time talking about a lot of things from my past like Ivy, like Kristen, Louis everything, a tons that she doesn't know yet but sure she will get a hint by what I said.

She doesn't know all my story, all my past in fact. But there are too many things to say. Too many that I don't want to remembery. I am fine right now with her, and I don't expect anything else. But she deserved it so I simply nodded and lool at her

She approachs me and kissed me. I smile and gave her one.

I smiled even if she can't see me. And I stay staring at her

I wasn't trying to push her out of my life just out of my mind. I was trying to order my thought but was a little hard right now. I stared at her waiting for a next question that she will ask