Watching a movie [Stella]

Cloths are always the problem.. after that your hair and after that make up..
first dates are always hectic, okay seconds dates aren't much better, but okay...

"Well you shouldn't dress up too much, of course you want to look good, but you always look good!"

I know how hard it is to find something perfect, But i've learn you don't have to overreact it. Of course it's special, But he likes you for who you are. IF he really likes you.

Stella was right... of course x'D He liked me for who i was.. but i mean he loved also how i dressed myself.. i knew that.. i knew him. Maybe i should just wear what he likes to see me in. I just didn't know.

"Yeah maybe i should wear something he likes to see me in" I agreed. And when i dicided that.. i have to do my hair and make-up... but that also depends on what i wear so i really have to dicide what i was gonna wear.. i know myself.. im gonna decide diffrent 5 minutes before he comes knocking on my door... x'D

"Aye! now you're talking my language!"

Almost all the cloths she wears look good on her except for the terrible dumpster suit or whatever it's called..
nobody looks good in it...
[exept for mac, he looks good in everything hehe]
Although everyone want to wear it when you have to go dumpster diving..

I laugh at her reply. But she knows just as good as I that she's damn right.. i just had to get over it and just wear something casua! x'D
But now we were talking about dating i was wondering about her and Mac.. cause there was definitly something too, she couldn't deny that either. Even though she was damn good at it.. and not like me.. sucked at it.. x'D But i also heard Danny and Don about it.. They were asking Mac about it, so i thought i give it a try,,,

"What about you and Mac? Did he already asked you out?" I asked as i tried to hide my evil grin.

Mac? who's Mac? -looks around-

nope I don't know a Mac! oh man please let her stop torture me with with name Mac.. It's already hard enough to hear it so often at work.. or call with Mac -sniff- XDDD

"Why would he ask me out? we are talking about our boss you know"

I'm not blushing..I'M NOT BLUSHING.. okay I'm blushing.. damn.. and boss shouldn't have asked me out.. That always goes wrong.. But I couldn't say no... right? not that I regret saying yes.. I actually enjoyed it..

I saw that she paniced a bit and heard her reply, okaai there was definitly something up. Then i caught her blushing, yes!! he did ask her out, i'm sure! there was no, no dingle way she could deny it now.

"Yeaah i saw that blush Stella! Spill it" I say with a laughter.

"Yeah it's a little hot in here"

I walk to the window, Oh greek gods help me!

"Do you want something to drink?"

I ask while I open the window. I take a deep breath and turn around, I walk up to the table and grab our glasses without knowing if Lindsay want something to drink I walk to the kitchen. How am I ever going to hide this.. Lindsay knows me too well.. But it's kinda hard to say, Oh hey I went on a date with my boss.. like that is as normal as every date.. imagine sinclair knowing about this.. She's going to kill me and Mac both..

Stella stood up and walked to the window saying it was just hot. It wasn't it was definitly a blush! I knew her too wel, there was something going on. Did she already went on a date? Did they have a relationship??

But okay she couldn't tell me that being happy.. cause if they found out their jobs were both in danger.. cause they were both bosses and Mac was the boss..
But i was so happy for her, and i didn't want her to lie to me either.

"Stella I wouldn't tell anyone else, you know you can trust me right?" I ask her while she is in the kitchen filling our glasses out of shock that i found out.

I don't want to be replaced but I don't want to give up on us.. This is so hard.. I really don't know what to do..

I sigh and look at Lindsay

"I know, I know, It's just if Sinclair finds out about Mac and me we are screwed"

I fill the glasses again and I automatically want to open the drawer on the left where the cookies stand.. or at least I thought so.. I look down in the drawer and see knifes and spoons laying in there.. gosh I'm already so used to Mac's apartment.. I open the right drawer and find the cookies..

I know I can trust Lindsay, But isn't it weird to tell her that me and Mac are already living together? I mean she don't even know we were dating.. okay it's a little complicated.. we weren't really dating when Mac kind of asked me to move in with him.. it's totally insane actually..

So i was right there was somthing. But it sounded like she didn't want to tell me everything. Well that was okay, if she really didn't want to, i mean i wasn't going to push it. I wouldn't like that either. But i was glad that she knew she could really trust me.

"Yeah that's true. I can always help you, you know that right?" I asked her. We always helped each other!

They really have to be quiet if they really did have a relationship, cause if someone would find out.. they were indeed 'screwed' as she put it.

"Thank you Linds, I would love to tell you the story about me and Mac but I just so scared that I will lose everything.. And just for you to know I already moved in with him.. I only keep my apartment so nobody will find out..."

The good thing is i don't have to hide it no more at least not for Lindsay, that feels much better.

"You did? Well that's amazing Stella, really! But i understand it's comlicated..It's not something you can talk about with everyone. Do you like to come around here? Cause we could go to my apartment when we hav our next movie evenings. But i also understand if you just like to come here, and see this place sometime" I ask her.

Maybe being her distracted her too much. Maybe it lay too much pressure on it, hiding it. She must be glad that i knew now, and that she could trust me. So she could talk about it with someone else, share her stories, tell someone else how damn happy she was, without anybody else noticing anything. I hope she would though, cause it was something for Stella to just hide how she felt about Mac. Me on the other hand i just had shouted through her apartment that Danny had asked me on a date...I guess she would never do that!
But i hope she would someday!

"When I moved my things to Mac's place we are also able to have our next movie evenings there, we just plan it on a evening when Mac works, Kasey won't give any trouble I think, she's mostly in her room anyway"

I can't wait to get ride of this place actually, I'm barely here anyway and it only cost money while I don't even use this apartment..

And I just want everyone to know I'm living with Mac and that I'm happy.. without loosing my job.. Sinclair who will kill us if he finds out.. Why is that man so stupid? I mean I had a relationship with his secretary once.. so I don't see the problem with me and Mac..

I watch her closely when she replied to me. Yeah I really understood that she wanted to get ride of this place. Why would you pay for it when u were never here? I felt a bit bad though.. cause she was now only here because of me.. and it also reminded her of how badly she wanted to sale this place...but i couldn't have known.. I'm glad she finally told me now, that's a relieve.

"Oh well that's fine with me too" I said and gave her the best smile i could give. I just wanted her to feel a bit better. I mean compaired to me and Danny this was a lot more complicated. We were just partners in work, as long as it didn't affect our job nobody, and certainly not sinclair would whine about us getting into a relationship.. whoa Lindsay wait up.. he just asked you on a date.. who said anything about a relationship...gosh my mind was already floating away i again. I shake my head to snap back to my conversation with Stella.