After the game(Danny)

Danny and I are walking to a little coffee shop after our game of baseball. I had a great time hope he did too. We walk in the shop order then sit down. and for the 2en time to day I got lost in my thoughts and did not hear what Danny said I blink and say.
Say what?

We had coffee, and now we were walking towards the house. Coffee in hand I make it a point but I see it does not respond, so I say to her. It's crazy but lately, I find it more resemblance to one of my former girlfriends, or rather I should say my first love. The girl for whom I had my first crush. And with that I left in high school, then university. Then she was gone. I do not know whether I want to see what I want, but I think she has something in common with her.
I just thought you played well. For the first time.

I hear him this time he tells me I played good for the first time the truth is it was not my first time.
Well thanks...But that wasn't my first time...I played in school on the girls team before I got kicked out of that school....Mom showed me how to play when I was really young. I've always love baseball and softball.

She explains that his mother taught him to play. I understand why she is so gifted. I look and keeps walking, still with my coffee. And I say with a smile.
I understand better. Anyway you play very well.

He tells me he understands and I play well again we walked with our coffee and I look at him and ask
So you wanted to be a baseball player when you were younger?

I told her this information just now when we were playing. And she asked me again, as he walked. How many bad memories of that day, or there was the brawl between players from my team and others. But I have other things going on now.
Yes but the future has decided otherwise. And I do not regret it.

we walk I drink so coffee and he tells me he doesn't regret it where he is now I can see that his a cop has a petty girlfriend and a cute little girl I understand him not regretting anything that happened. I feel the need to ask him something thats been on my mind for years now I get in front of him to stop he from walking and ask.
Do you regret leaving Kristen?
I look in his eyes he looks as if he has no idea what I'm talking about.

She stops and turns to me. So I stopped in my lap, wondering what it takes. Then she asks me if I also regret having to leave Kristen. How she knows. And why she asks me this question. I did not think Kristen has since our breakup. I look in the eye and asked him for myself.
What are you talking about?

he asked me what I'm talking about? what does he think I'm talking about how could I make it more make clear.
You do you mean what am I talking about? You left my mother when she told you she was pregnant with me?
I start to raise my voice. Clearly pissed off I'm still looking at him but now with tears in my eyes not crying.

His mother? No no, Kristen was not pregnant, and I did not quit. It was she who left before I could ask her to stay. His mother? This may not be possible. No.
Your mother? No. you must be mistaken.

I dug in my bag and pull out a piece of paper and push it in his chest.
Here its my birth certificate look at the parents names.
I look at him looking at the paper.
Your my Father.

She looks for something in her bag. She takes a paper and push it in my Chest. I watched her do recover this famous paper and starts reading it, so she told me to read the names of parents who were registered above. She says I am her father. But it's impossible.
It is impossible, made a mistake. I'm not your father.

my mind is spinning how could he said his not my father look at him hurt and say
Your not my father or don't want to be my father? Lets do a DNA test then if you don't believe me. Will that help you understand that this is true?

What she wants me to tell me. It'm swinging it overnight, after all this time passes. I watched her and tried to calm myself, because I understand anything. I thought since when Kristen was a party, then the age of Nikki.
It is impossible. Kristen is a party there over 16 years ... And you have ... 16 ... It is impossible.
The "I thought that my world collapsed. All was explained. The precipitate departure of Kristen, Nikki Meets ...

He starts mumble its hard to understand what his saying so I shank my head and put my hand up to tell him to stop
Ok first off stop saying impossible its getting old really fast and I'm 15 not 16 so yes it is possible...And like I said lets go get a DNA test done thats the only way your going to accept the fact.

I do mumble starts. I was thinking out loud the whole story. I finally understood why Kristen was gone like a thief, and asked me not to try to find her. I kept the promise I had made, not to look. But I had done was against heart. I looked at Nikki. Since all these days she is home (my apartment and that of Lindsay) I found him in common with Kristen without really intending it, without really putting a real highlight.
How long have you know?

He ask me how long I've known I think back and answer.
About three years....Mom told me when she left Robert who you were...I asked her like so many time but all she told me was you left before she had me....Why did you leave?
I ask looking away from you I could not look you in the eyes anymore I hate you right now but part of my heart will always love you.

She told me again that it is me who has left Kristen time. But this is not true, Kristen who is a party. I watch her, she is too young to understand, but now the story is this again, so I told her.
I did not quit. It was she who left.

He tells me it was her who left not him. I fell sick to my stomach and turn to him and say
Whatever you say.
I grab my birth certificate out of his hand rudely and put it in my bag
Just forget you ever meet me.
With that I turn and start to walk away.

She takes the sheet and handed in her bag. And after saying another thing, it goes. I caught up with her and saying.
Hey you can not come tell me all this and start the next move.

He caught up with me and stops me I turn to him angrily and yell
What part of forget we met did you not understand!
I feel my body start to shank badly I can stop it I know I'm pushing it by yelling at him but I don't care anymore he can't hurt me more then I have been before.

She asks me what part I did not understand. I can see she is not happy with my reaction, but hey, how she wanted me to react. For a time I learned that I am a father, and the more I understand why my first love left me there are more than 15 years. I looked at her and reply.
You think it's easy to digest. On learning that I am a father, when she left me there more than 15 years without giving me any explanation. You think I did not try to find her. She made me promise not to seek to find her. I kept my promise, because I loved her too much to break my promess.

I look at him. He tells me She left him again it makes me more angry why would my mom lie about who left who? This is to much I walk over to a bench sit and say
Mom told me if she passes away and I was still to young to take care of myself I needed to find you I see now that was the wrong thing to do.
I pull out a book it was Kristen's dairy
Mom said after I meet you I need to read part of her Dairy....Then I would understand everything....I see no point in reading it.
I put it back I feel Danny grab my arm firm but not hard I turn to him and say
What now?

She sits down, get out another notebook, and explained that Kristen wrote in this book every day. It was hier diary. I watch it advanced towards her and said, while having a quiet voice, and while trying to show her that everything is fine.

I never leave your mother, I love her too much for do this thing. She asked me to don't try to find her, and I respect her choice, by do it. You can hate me, but don't hate the fact that I don't search to be with your mother. Okay ?

No please God no I feel tears welling up in my eyes right now I'm a strong girl I don't cry like this. Or about things like this I put on my tough girl face and look at him.
I don't hate you....But I hate the fact that you never known...Or you didn't care I'm not sure which it was and don't care right now.....I know this is hard for you and you must likely don't want me as a daughter....I don't blame you for that...But the fact is you to a point are stuck with me...Trust me I don't like it any more then you do.
I sigh and wipe away my tears that have fallen. I look up at him and he's still looking in my eyes.
If you don't want to do that paternity test thats fine...I'll just be on my way.....I'm sorry if I hurt you.